Understand

最近明白了很多道理
最近明白了很多事情
最近明白了自己
最近明白了生活

明白了
都了解了
不再去勉强
不再去执着

放开
看开
打开

生活就是这样
是你的，还是你的
时间会让一切都解决

现在是时候真正的为自己努力
为自己而活
我就是我
不是为了讨好别人而活的我

MK, BE MATURE
YOU CONTROL YOUR OWN LIFE

Miss

There are two meanings for 'MISS'
Can be a tittle for a girl
OR
Can be some action that is sad

I'm a MISS
I'm also MISS
Taking the proactive of doing everything is
Really sick
Really exhausted
Really upset
Because you don't know whether it is right or not
Don't know
Really don't know

Already fed up with proactive and initiative
But without doing them, I won't be able to get what I want
Sigh.......
Missing

MK, BE BRAVE
BE STRONG
BE HAPPY
BE POSITIVE

NOTHING CAN BET U DOWN

Stupid

Feel myself so stupid
Why always to do something that try to make everybody happy
How foolish it is.......

Don't know what people think..
Don't know what's the purpose..

It's STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID

I know I can't force things and try to make things right
I should just be myself and stop fool my self

I should be the central of my life
Not others

MK, BE SMART
BE CAREFUL
BE HAPPY
NO ONE CAN PUT YOU DOWN

Security

A sense of security

What is that?
It is when you feel comfortable and secure....

Acutally, I'm lack of security since i was young.
I know I actually have so many different things but still.. The mind is unsecure.

But
When hug tightly with him, and when he reponsed back,
The feel of his shoulder, his chest and his heartbeat made me sososo secure
I felt really want to just stay like that forever.
The way he touched my hair felt like I'm a baby.
Felt really comfortable and secure.
Wish time could stop at the moment.
When touched his face and played with his hair,
The warms from them made me sososo happy.

I really miss the feelings
But I know I need to give up these.... They don't belongs to me

GIVE UP
GIVE UP
GIVE UP
GIVE UP
GIVE UP

I really feel unsecure now
Where is the way to feel secure all the time??
Where
Where
Where
Where
Where

MK, BE STRONG
BE FLEXIBLE
ACCEPT FACTS


LIFE IS NOT ONLY THAT
LIFE IS FULL OF OTHERS FACTORS

Time's up

Birthday is coming
It's time for changes...
Time for making lost of goal for next birthday....

Let start thinking.

MK, BE STRONG
BE FLEXIBLE

Do

On facebook
On blogspot
I've write so many things and so many statements that I want to do and what I want to push myself to do
But I actually can't work them out
Seriously, I need to work them out
I need to make them true
Make them become part of me

Simple
Do not care
Live the moment
Don't think too much

Mk, Try the best
I know I can

I do not care

I have been care too much
Too much
Too over
It's the time to stop and live for myself

曾经
以为做了就会有结果
曾经
以为努力就会有结果
曾经
以为还是会有希望
不过，现在
我不想再去在乎了

想要享受這個moment
想要好好的refresh my mind
想要享受我的人生

只要笑一笑，沒什麽事情過不了
笑一笑
忘一忘
哭一哭
又是美好的moment

Mk, Do your best
Don't need to care too much
Gambateh

Hard to read

People said to me that I'm kind of girl who is thinking very much
They find it hard to understand and read me
On my facebook, they couldn't find out what are my status about.

Am I?
Really?
Do you guys think so as well??

May be because of
I'm Scorpion

I don't know!
I still need time for maturing and grow up

MK, BE CONSCIOUS
BE STRONG
BE SMART

Simple

Only solution is
SIMPLE

See everything Simply
Think everything Simply
Talk everything Simply

SIMPLE!!!!!!!

Only simple can make things good.....

MK, BE SIMPLE
BE HAPPY
DON'T NEED TO MAKE THING COMPLICATE

SIMPLE LIFE
SIMPLE THOUGHT
SIMPLE PERSONALITY

SIMPLE

I'll be okie

I shouldn't spend time on those
It's already too much
Life shouldn't just full with these
Life makes up of many parts
- Families
- Friends
- Socials
- Foods
- Learning
ETC
ETC

My life should fill with happiness even though tough time is coming
Don't be afraid, just do whatever I can
Face tough time with strong attitude
My family need me
I have to be a strong girl

MK, BE STRONG
BE BRAVE
BE OPTIMISTIC

GAMBATEH!!!!

Tired -- > Fear

I already been college for 5 weeks. It will be my week 6 next week.
If you ask me my comments for the pst 5 weeks, I'd say NOT AS GOOD AS I THOUGHT.

It probably just myself have thinking too much but it is really what I think about it right now
Before I go to college:
I thought it would be happy
I thought it would be enjoyable
I thought it would be rock
After the 5 weeks there:
It is not very happy
It is not enjoyable
It is not rock

Well, I'm not saying it is really suck but it is just not good enough.
I feel TIRED
-Have to drive about 35 mins each way
-I have to get up 2 hours before the class start
-Confused, tired, upset about the realationship with people
-Spend about 100 euro each week
I'M REALLY TIRED
Money isn't really a big deal
What disturbed me since I started is the people

I don't know how to communicate well with people
I always say something wrong
I always do smething wrong
I really don't know who I can really trust and believe
I really don't know and understand what the hell they're doing
What is the purpose?? Tell me Tell me Tell me
I pretended myself as a fool
I pretended not to care
I pretended that I was happy
I pretended that I wasn't upset
And of course, I made few good friends. I'm glad that I met them, otherwise I'd die

Seriously
All I want is SIMPLE
I don't need the lies
I'm not kind of girl who like to cheat and pretend
I just want straight forward and simple reponse
Can you please don't lie and fool me
If you tell me your true thought, I won't mind even it is cruel
I'm happy in this way

I know
It's the time to learn
It's the time to be mature
It's the time to grow
It's the time to give up
It's the time not to serious
It's the time not to stubborn
It's the time to LIVE FOR MYSELF

Each week can happened many things
Each week can change my attitute
Each week can hurt me
I'm just speechless now.... SILENCE

MK, BE STRONG
BE BRAVE
BE REALISTIC


Actually
I FEEL SCARED AND WORRIED
Many things - too much, too many had happened, some other bad things will come soon as well
What I can do??
NOTHING
Just simply wait it to come to find me.....

Positive

Suddenly sing K alone at home
Singing is my hobby
Through it, I can release my feelings and I can forget everything
When happy = Sing
When upset = Sing
When angry = can't sing!!!!



Recently don't know why getting so emotional, therefore, wrote POSITIVE on my hand for reminding myself.
Is it works??
Not really!!!!



Today, I listened, played, and messed with PETIT CHIEN by Chopin
It's my favourite. I usually turn it on very loud and mess and play with it.
I messed with it when I'm angry, sad, upset and negative.
It can really cheer me up and make me forget the pains.
Good way for releasing feelings as well.

IT'S MY LIFE, really!!!

MK, CHEER UP.
TOMORROW WILL BE BRILLIANT DAY

Fairytale, Idol Drama

童話里的故事多么的美麗
公主遇難就一定會有心愛的王子來搭救
從此以後，可愛的公主就和心愛的王子過著幸福又溫馨又快活的日子了

偶像劇的劇情又是多么的漂亮
帥氣男主角一定會在最後的關頭出現幫助無助的女主角
從此以後，男女主角過著幸福又溫馨又快活的日子了

你相信你的生命會像童話里的公主嗎？
你相信你的生命會像偶像劇里的女主角嗎？

如果有人問我，我會説
我不相信
可是
心裡會期待這永遠不會發生的事情

童話，偶像劇，就像是我的夢
華麗而不實
夢里的我，是多么的開心，幸福
白馬王子會出現搭救我，幫助我
當我累了，王子的肩膀可以讓我休息
在王子的面前，不用偽裝，不用假裝
想哭就哭，想唱就唱，想笑就笑
只要王子的一個笑容
只要王子的一個眼神
就能夠讓我安心
讓心沉淀
但恐怕，這些美麗的故事就只能在夜晚的夢裡出現
醒來了，就要面對現實的一切
寧願昏睡在這些夢裡
也不愿意醒過來

現實
很殘忍
很可怕
很難過
你猜我，我憂心
你騙我，我難過
你害我，我失望
這，這，這一切是什麽？？
難道這就是你我要的嗎？

其實也不知道要寫什麽
説什麽，想什麽
可能是心裡覺得很亂，很累
需要一個垃圾桶
把不乾淨，肮髒的東西統統給扔掉
可是扔掉了還是會有細菌留下
細菌會滲入體內
進而傷害身體
然後留下根治不了的傷痕

MK
加油，好嗎
相信明天會更好，好嗎
樂觀一點，好嗎
努力一點，好嗎
堅強一點，好嗎
忘記，好嗎
不要在乎，好嗎



我不需要王子

Hurt

I hurt by people
I hurt others
I hurt myself

What I can say about it??
Silence.... ><

I know I did actually hurt others and I actually know how it feels but nothing I can do about it, because it is all by fate
Fate lead us to this condition
Well, I know we can't blame the god and fate
It is all about our choices.



Time will recover us from pains..
Just LET IT BE

MK, DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
BE POSITIVE AND HAPPY AND CHEER UP
NOTHING YOU CAN DO AND CHANGE

S.T.O.P - It's new start

I asked myself to stop
Stop being so stupid
Stop being so emotion
Stop being so stubborn
Stop being so mental
STOP
STOP
STOP
It's enough

Start my new life
Let it be
Leave it goes as it is
Nothing can make me stay in one condition
Forget the downrun

I still have brilliant future in front of me
I still have plenty of youths
I still have the ability to make my own life

MK, GO AHEAD
LOOK AHEAD
USE THE BEST OF LIFE

I BELIEVE I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH
I WILL BE STAND UP AGAIN
I WILL HAVE BRILLIANT DAY
I BELIEVE I CAN FLY
GO GO GO

Gossiping

It's everywhere
What can we do to stop it?
Really, nothing we can do
Just simple IGNORE it
After then .. ??
Hurt inside.

I already tried my best to forget and get over all the guilties, all the stupids, all the scars.
But why devils still follow and try to catch me?
I really do wan't a new life.
So??
Wants and Facts are different.
People can change their attitudes toward you.
People can ignore you even you were close to each other the last second.
People can damage your name by saying out a simple lie.
What we can do?
I'm not a harsh person
I just want a simple life
PLEASE LET ME GO

MK, POSITIVE

Pretending to be stronger because you are weaker than anyone else, you are just so reluctant to admit it. 故作坚强是因为你其实比谁都软弱，你是那么不愿意去承认这一点。

Pretending
Pretended I don't care
Pretended I don't mind
Pretended to be happy
Pretended to be stupid

There are lots and lots of pretending in our life
What comment I can give?
Nothing
Really, Nothing

Actually, I really feel positive these days, but things always turn me up side down.
I want to think NOTHING
I just want to LVE THE MOMENT n ENJOY MY LIFE
I do not want to live for others
IT'S MY LIFE

MK, DO NOT CARE & MIND
IT'S YOUR LIFE
BE HAPPY

Won't Care & Won't Mind = Feel Better

Mind and Care are always my bad habits because too much from them
Mind about everything and Care about everything just will make me feel worse
They make me feel upset and negative
Therefore, I decide try to:
DON'T CARE & MIND
WON'T CARE & MIND

Just
LIVE THE MOMENT
ENJOY THE LIFE
HAVE FUN

By the way, I think I should really control myself more because I go crazy very easily and always say something worng and behave unmanner.

MK, LIVE THE MOMENT
NOT TO CARE AND MIND TOO MUCH
DO WHAT YOU CAN DO AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO
CONTROL YOURSELF

Already too long in a condition, Time to move on

Since the semester started, my life is kind of stuck in one place.
May be I should say it in this way :
I feel that I haven't learn anything since the semester have started
I feel that I'm wasting my valuable time, because I was struggling on something.
But it's okie now. I should really catch up my plans and aims.
IT'S TIME TO MOVE

I'm going to start my college life properly, not to think about triggers and silly things. --- >> Well, I hope so.
Life isn't only about silly things.
Life should fill with values.

MK, BE BRAVE
ADD OIL
MOVING ON

DO EVERYTHING THAT I CAN
GO GO GO

深

傷痕原來比想象中的更要深

幾時會痊愈？

It doesn't mean you can have the thing you like

Always
Always
What you like will not come to you easily
Always
Always
What you don't like and don't want come to you easily

Isn't it stupid?
Well THAT'S LIFE..



This song can really express my word...

I don't know when I have the ability to get and to do what I like, I'd hope I won't give up.

LIVE THE MOMENT,MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
WORK IT UP!!

Who tell you life is easy

I will never forget this statement from my colleague.
Few weeks ago, While I was busy and D came in to helped me. I told him ' Life is tough, Life is hard '. But guess what he said?
' WHO TELL YOU LIFE IS EASY '
I was really shocked because he hinted me up. What he said is true, who tell us life is easy.
Well, Life is never easy.

I feel tired.
I have to drive up to college every day and at the weekend I have to work like hell.
I really want a change but how? In what way?
Everyday, all the probelms and triggers come in front of my eye and wait me to get up from sleep.
I know, many troubles are from myself but I really don't know how to change my attitude.
I always tell myself to accept the life and move on but I never really work it out. There are thousands and thousands truths that I want to speak and scream out loud, but I have no way to release.
Blogging can help me something but not alots.
I should stop using the 'But', because 'But' means bad.

One of big defeat is = relationship with people
I don't really know how to interact with people becauce my communication skills are bad. They misunderstood me. I reallt don't know how to make them relize my words.
Gosh, please read my word properly. I hate being misunderstand by others.

I don't know what I want to write out. I just know that now my heart is vexed and tired.
I thought my life can be better after attending college. But unfortunately, more problems. May be I'm thinking too much.

One thing I really don't get and don't understand is:
WHY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME 'ARE YOU OKIE'
Why?
Am I that weak? Or in my friends eyes, they all think that I'm a weak girl.
Well, what I can say is ' I'M NOT A STRONG GRIL '
But, Am I that weak?
It doesn't matter where I'm and what I do, people will always ask me 'ARE YOU OKIE'
E.g.
1. I rubbed my eyes, people then said ' Are you okie? ' They thought I was crying.
2. In nightclub, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
3. At work, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
4. I sneezed, then people asked me ' Are you okkie? '
5. In school, school mates asked me ' Are you okie? '
And many others situations but I forgot.
Why they keep ask me ' Am I okie '
Something wrong with my face? Am I looked too sad?
Therefore yesterday, I asked one my colleague:
Me : Why you keep ask me ' Am I okie? '
C : I also don't know.
Me : You think I cried or something?
C : I think so. I always think you are sad or cry when you're sneeze and when you aren't talking.
Me : Why? It's so weird.
C : Ya, It's weird.
This is our conversation. I really wondering WHY?
Can somebody answer me?
May be is because of my face.

Anyway,
LEARN TO SAY NO, MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.

New life started ...

From now on, I have to drive up and down everyday for college. It is really tiring and it will be so tiresome. What I can do? I have no choices. :( Well, have to get used to it.


This is the view when I drove back to home after college. I will have to face this everyday.... I can't imagine that how I would like for the following three years.


We had this today for our dinner. I love my daddy because he always make many nice and gorgerous dishes for us. This is one of my favourite. 【 Fried Aubergine 】I'm going to learn how to cook properly... :) :D

BTW,
LEARN
LEARN
LEARN
N
GET USED TO THE LIFE

First Day of Semester

It was my first day of semester 1, but I only had one class today. I'm really enjoyed the day but something happened that spoiled my mood.

As I said, It was my first day, so I still not too sure how the WIT works. There is a big car park behind the campus, but there wasn't any spaces at all therefore I had no choice, I had to parked it somewhere that hindered others car. Therefore, when I returned to my car after the class, I saw 2 sheets. One sheet was from the WIT which stated that I had parked wrong and hinder other. I will have to pay fees if I do any violation again. But, come on, where we suppose to park if there isn't any car park? Of course, I know it was my fault but still I parked there because other did it as well. Anyway, I was glad that I don't need to pay the stupid fine. The second sheet was from students from WIT, because the language that appeared in the sheet was really bad and no maner. I don't understand why people use such languge all the time. Have they ever realise how bad it is and how no maner it is. It's a shame. Serisouly. This really spoiled my mood and made my hapiness day to disappeared.. Anyway, I don't want to care..

Seriously, I have to get rid of the undecisive habit because I couldn't make decisions..

MK, WAKE UP
LEARN
WORK
SET THE TARGET, AND GO..
DON'T LOOK BACK

Semester start tomorrow

YES!!
Semester starts tomorrow.
Actually now I'm quite depress because will need to back to student life and need to face all the stress and pressure. I'm not looking forward but I'm can wait to have everything over and leave the country.. May be!!! :)

Anyway for the following 3 years, I will try my best to study hard for a good and brilliant certificate so that I will be able to do what I want.
Life is bored and tough.
But I need to be possitve otherwise life will not be fun and challenge.

I will need to set my objectives for my 3 years college life. I want to get all I can from the college because I don't want to waste my time and opportunities... And also it is expensive enough to study there. So don't waste time and money. Time is VALUABLE.

START YOUR NEW LIFE TOMORROW, MK.
BE BRAVE.

International Induction Day

What the hell!!
I had sent many emails to WIT for asking the questions, but they didn't reply to me at all. After about 2 weeks of waiting, I already give up of waiting their reply. But guess what?? I got a reply today, well it's too late and no use anymore..
Anyway... What I can say, I can't blame the system. That's the way they are in the country.

The Induction Day was good overall apart from some disturbing problems. I knew 2 girls whose from Korea and Russian, Joo and Orga. They are really nice and friendly. I hope our friendship can last forever. :)



There will be an International Welcome Party on thrusday night but I'm bit lazy because it took around 35 minutes for me to drive there and 35 minutes home. That'll be very tiring. Well, I just have too much excuses.

MK, DON'T BE LAZY
GET INVOLVE AND FEEL THE THIRD LEVEL

Summer is nearly over..

I can't believe it
The time passed really fast, it is like the fast-forward button on the remote control..
One word --> FAST
I really miss that the time when I have plenty of free time and no need to worry about that I have no time to do this, that at home..
It's now nearly over. Gosh, I want a fresh new summer again.

Last night, I went out to Creation with colleagues. It was great fun. I find out that dancing with no thinking is a good way to express all the emotions. The sweats, the drinks, the moving, the music make me mad actually.
But one thing I don't get is why colleagues treat me as a young girl? They kept asking me am I okie. Seriously millions times.. Well, it is warm though because people care about you.

Actually today I'm thinking about is there tricks behind all the caring??

Anyway, International Induction Day tomorrow...
I'm really nervous and worry because I really hate being alone. I really know no one there. I really hope that tomorrow will be a good day for me..... Hopefully.. Please..

BE BRAVE & FACE IT
DON'T BE SO LAZY, MK

Live the Moment

I just finishing King Kong with my family. It is the 2005 one.
Everytime I watch it I always have the same feeling at the end because people killed such nice King Kong. But they still think they were right. Well, it's only a film but ‘Play is like the life; Life is like the play'. What happens in the reality is always present in the play.

In reality, we all know and understand how the game is play. People can hurt others because of their own selfish idea. They don't care. They won't consider the points from others; they just will think of their advantages. Well, not all people are but there are some idiots.
We all had experienced the difficulties from idiots but still can't accept the fact and always ask WHY WHY WHY, HOW HOW HOW. Seriously, I find it hard to get over those but still have to make it over. I already fed up to ask why why why and how how how I will just leave it go.

Actually now I'm quite upset because of those news. People can die with no predictions. Life is really weak.

Anyway

LIVE THE MOMENT
ENJOY AND CHERISH WHAT YOU HAVE

That is what I can do now.

I only compared with myself

Yes, I got the result yesterday. It wasn't too good but I'm glad that I have finished it and it will be a new start, new hope, new aim, and new life.
I used to be who do not admit defeat. When I see others have more better results, I'd always unhappy because I thought I can be better than them. I know it is bad because it damaged my mood and my life.
I actually realised that I'm not a clever, smart person and I hasn't worked hard enough for everything. I was over confident about everything. I need to learn more and pay more attention on things rather than just do many things at the same time. It is bad.
Well, I have grown up. I have learned.

I WILL ONLY COMPARE WITH MYSELF

I have to hypnotize myself:
1. WORK HARD ON EVERYTHING AND DON'T LET YOURSELF REGRET ABOUT THE DECISION
2. AFTER SETTING THE TARGET, STAY AT IT AND WORK AT IT, NO MATTER WHAT
3. ONLY COMPARE WITH MYSELF

ADD OIL..

Hmm.. Its tomorrow

Yes, It's 18 of August
Finally it is coming
Well, I'm not really nervous I'm just bit can't wait.. ps: I'm not sure
Anyway, let's talk about my day

Today I went to library borrow some books, they looked very nice, I'm going to finish them before september..Hopefully. Sure will tell about the books after finish them.


Counselling -- > Took out ages ago, but haven't finish it. Actually it is quite boring
Dreams -- > This looks interesting
Body Signs -- > This looks good. Well, I think it is good to know what's the body mean.
I can't wait to finish them.

After the dinner with family, we went to the beach for a little walk. The weather was quite cool today but the beach wasn't quite. There was some people and many camp sites.

At 8.00pm, I went to the Indian Ocean restaurant down the quay with friends. I had mild mixed vegtables korma (coconut creamy taste) with chips. Actually I realised that I couldn't eat chips with curry. It tastes better with rice. The pulao rice was nice there and the food wasn't too expensive there. But the mixed vegtables that I got wasn't good quantity because it was just a few vegtables. I really want to complaint actually.



Anyway
HOPE TOMORROW WILL BE A WONDERFUL DAY FOR ME
I WANT TO MAKE MY DECISION

Nostalgic

2 hours ago, I suddenly checked my 'Treasure Box' by a sudden impulse. By checking the box I realised that I'm so nostalgic. There are many stuff there, such as pictures, postcards, flight ticketc and etc... Basically, Lots things.
Most things were bought and taken from Malaysia (My Homeland). Some of them were from my holiday and from Ireland also. I think the reason why I　keep those things is because of the missing of Family, Friends and House in Malaysia. This is why I have such habit since I was young.

Most things were really funny to keep till now :




























































SO NOSTALGIC I AM

Indecisive

I had been a indecisive person since I was born
I won't be able to make my own choice; I always change my mind; I always worry this and that
I never stay on my mind and hold up
This is a very bad character - I know it, I really do

But there are reasons
What I had experienced before leaded me to this such defect...
What I had plan and thought will never turn up
Seriously, Never and Ever

Do you know how bad the feelings are?
Actually I already get used to the way of disapointed from expectations
I already fed up
I already give up
I already accept it
I already not unhappy about those shits, I just bit disapointing
I know I shouldn't give up so easily, and the true is just I won't pay too much expect from my plan and my thought
I will just LEAVE IT GO AS IT IS

Anyway
ONCE YOU SET THE TARGET, STAY AT IT, NO MATTER WHAT <-- this is what I want to tell myself, I need to learn

Btw, I accept the harsh and the discipline from the god.
I WILL ADD OIL -- ps: Im not that pessimistic, I know I will be OPTIMISTIC
I don't know how I will be in a month, in few year, in my life
But, I WILL TRY MY BEST AND JUST ACCEPT EVERYTHING :D

Contradictory

Wow!! Another 10 days

10 days later, I'll know where is my way and what decisions I can make. Although I always want this day to come but it will also a tough day. I will have to make my decision as soon as possible; I will need to worry about the money; I will definite contradictory because I want this but I also want that.

What else I can do... Life is so contradictory...

My heart is really sore and tiring.

HAIZ

You never know your luck

Never!!!
Never!!!

It is hard to know what will happen
What you desire and hope for won't come to you easily...

I know for the moment, education is really important. With a certificate, you can do most things you want. But it is really hard for me to decide.

Should I spend that much for education?
I know the answer actually. I know I should. But I afraid of failure and wasting.
Should I go to experience the society now?
I know I shouldn't. Because it isn't the time.

Anyway, we'll see..
I need to think deeply, but I already fed up.

COME ON, 18 of AUGUST

I know

I know I'm not good enough;
I know I'm not smart enough;
I know I'm not clever enough;
I know I'm not brave enough;
I know I'm not friendly enough;
I know I'm not talktive enough;
I know I'm not decisive enough;
I know I'm not happy enough;
I know I know I know I know I know ....
I know what I prefer to do;
I know I won't be able to do it...
I know..
I know I'm stupid...

I know I already fed up the life in Ireland. But I don't know how I can continue to hold and keep going in here. Seriously, I really want to leave with my family. I'm tired. I feel my shoulder is heavy like stone..
I really think Western culture is more suitable for me and my family.

But when I can run away??

Another 3 years??

I HOPE IS TOMORROW

Unfair... So??

Life is Unfair..
Society is Unfair..
I think everyone definite know this, but are they understand it??
Well, I know it is the way in this society but I can't understand.

I hate working. Why I hate it? May be I don't have the right job or may be it is the same in everyplace....
It is a high class and high standard restaurant. Before I worked there, I thought it would be a very good place to work because it looked good but it isn't. It is so unfair. Seriously, REALLY UNFAIR.
I think I work quite well there. Well, not brilliant but grand. But some people are so lazy and so horrible.
Now, I just returned from work. I'm actually fed up working with such people. Before I went in to work, I said to myself, get used to it and be happy. But I couldn't. When I had to worked like a servant or slave I felt myself so stupid. How come N allow to take the advantages and how come when N and others did wrong things no one realised it? WHY??
I found it hard to tell the people to cope on. Am I too good or ?? Anyway, It's too late.

And now, Again.. I say to myself get used to it and be happy while working because I know I looked very serious while working but I want to smile and happy and leave it as it is.. But I don't think I can but I will try my best the next time. I really hope it will work next time.

I DON'T WANT TO CARE ABOUT WHAT'S OTHER DOING AND I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.. BE HAPPY, MK..

Which way - I don't know

Which way??
I don't know....

Today, I received a letter from WIT. The letter stated that I need to send some more documentations to them to see whether they can change my fee status or not. Then I rang them. The woman told me that I will have to pay 8400+ because of my stamp 2 status here. I think it isn't fair. It is abit expensive for me.

I don't know what to do. I'm not the kind of person who has brilliant result. I'm not a good student and I really think I shouldn't spend too much on the fee as I'm not really good at studies. But on the other hand, without education, what else I can do.

May be it is the time to start the other dream??
May be?

I don't know..

Dream Life

Dream
Everyone in this planet dreams
Whether you are a teenager, or an adult or a politician
We all dream and dream
What's your dream???

This few days, I was thinking about the dreams
There are alots
I know I need to work hard and hard for them
So I really pushed myself to them
I told myself to keep going and not to stop
But
One of my Entertainment Dream I'm lost
Should I go for it now?
May be I should wait until I graduate

I know my dream life won't happens in this such place
I know my dream life won't happens in this few years
I know I have to wait till I graduate
I know I have to leave this such place
I know I won't stay in this such place

I don't know
Really
I don't know
I hope I can have my dream life in the future
I hope I can make it true

WELL, HOPEFULLY

Melodies

I like Music
I love Music
I adore Music

Music touchs me and feels me and comforts me

My spirit will go into the melodies and I can feel the stories of the melodies

I don't know what I want to say right now

I just want to say

MUSIC IS PART OF MY LIFE
I LIKE SING-K
I LIKE COMPOSE NEW MELODIES AND LYRICS

Value those that you have right now - 珍惜眼前人

I miss her - My Granny
My granny is now 80 years old and will turn 81 soon

80 seems like a gate for us - It is a old gate for us

My parents left me and my brother and they went to Ireland for work when I was 3 years old. My granny and my aunt were the one whose raised me up and whose took care of me and my brother. But we left them when I was 12. We went to Ireland and we stayed here till now. Well, of course, we returned there 3 times so far. Everytime I returned there, I saw their faces were paled and more older. They aren't the one whose used to take care of me. Their pale hair made me regret. They aren't young anymore.

I miss them. I really miss them. I want to see them and take care of them. Seriously, I can't wait to graduate and return to homeland to stay with them. Of course with my parents too. This is one of my dream.

This summer, 2010. I thought that I should be responsible and shouldn't use too much money for returning and shouldn't just leave my parents and job here. But I realised that the job doesn't need me. I realised that I don't have the exploitation value anymore. They don't need me. They abandoned me.

I'm really regret that I didn't return to visit my granny and my relatives in Malaysia. I miss them. It is too late for returning.

I like read newspaper. But you know, many news in newspaper are about the deaths and stuff like that. I feel that we must always value those that we have right now. We must cherish, we must act on our dreams and we must use the valuable time.

Definitely, I will return next year and definitely I won't pay too much time on those rubbish things... I will enjoy my life and I won't just work and work and I won't make life difficult for myself.

I WANT TO MOVE ON

Truth is REALISTIC

REALISTIC

Truth is always realistic
Society is always realistic
People is always realistic
WE ARE ALWAYS REALISTIC TOO

Since from my ignorance, I saw many ruthless,selfish and ugly faces. I experienced the lies,the useds, and the gossips. No matter how good they used to be; No matter how good you were; No matter how close you were; When they come to the advantages, they will betray you and leave you with shits. They don't care, and actualy they won't care.

I admit.
I'm selfish person too. When it comes to the end, I'll always make a good way for myself. But I'm not the type of person who ignore the miserable of others. So??I ended up nothing.

I don't hate those duplicity who used me and fooled me. Because I know the societies and the realities forced them to. I know it is the time to wake up and not to accommodate myself to others. I've done enough.

It is the right time to make things happen and not wait them give me chances when they feel want to.

I have to fight for opportunities.

Rainy Day - Time to move on

It is raining outside at the moment

The weather is very soft, cool and comfortable

I like this type of weather, but just if I stay at home

Hmm .. Actualy

After returned from Paris, I haven't done much

It's like doing nothing

It is very enjoyable and it gave me time to think

What I'm going to do in 2 months time?
&
What I'd love to do in my life?
&
What I'd love to achieve in my life?

I can't really put down answers

But I did put down aims I want to achieve for 2010 :)

Well, a good new start..

From my point of view, I think we can't really set a goal or something because life is so changeable. You can't predict what will happen. Life isn't steady enough. Life is so short and everything is just so unexpected. But mission, goals and aims can motivate you.

The mission I always want for life since I was very young is earn a good money and provide my family a good and steady life. I don't like to see them force themselves to stay in the work conditions like hell. All I want is just a happy life. It is always my dream.

I know I have to work and move on. Therefore, learning is my plan for this summer.

Mission

What is a Mission

From my brain - Mission is the overall objective of something
It can be your business's mission, your life mission, and etc

What is your life mission?

I'm not really sure

Well, I have some clues but I　can't really put it down

May be it is the time that I should really think and following my goal

LET'S START THINKING!!!!!

Paris's Status - Will definite go back again

My first day in Paris..... One word to describes it :::: Sucks.
-- It is extremely hot.. Hotter than Malaysia
-- Hotel doesn't looked like a hotel.. It is only a shelter for travellers
-- All plans was failed
-- Moody atmosphere between us
-- Streets are unorganised
One Word overall : Sucks.
Paris isn't romantic at all... >_<

很累！睡唔到。巴黎比我想象中的不一樣。我的計劃也沒有用。當我起身那陣，先發現原來睡不到一小時。街上離譜的車及摩托，同埋很夸張的勤力警察及救護車，從晚上10就開始吵。一直無停的吵。就算下雨都是一樣吵嘘巴闭。真系好夸張。晚上大概11點吵到睡唔到就想出去吃野，但是全部closed。大街大巷都沒野吃，只有那些飛仔飛女在那邊吵來吵去。這裡的摩托比馬來西亞更加的多。那些摩托都不睇人，就這樣撞過去。。差不多架架的摩托都裝到好像跑車那樣，吵到要死。就連人行道都有人坐腳車。可能centre巴黎是這樣瓜。總之就閑啦！

Wish me luck...... GoodBye.. Au Revoir.

Reached home safe.... It wasn't a brilliant holiday but it was grand although it was sucks in the 1st day. Will definite go back again but just for SHOPPING.....

Overall :

1st day - Brilliant in the morning, Bad in the afternoon, Sucks in the evening
2nd day - Brilliant in the morning, Good in the afternoon, Sucks in the evening
3rd day - Good in the morning, Excellent in the afternoon, Brilliant in the evening
4rd day - Good in the morning, Excelletnt in the afternoom , Brilliant in the evening
5ft day - Brilliant in the morning, Brilliant in the afternnon, Excellent in the evening

I'm over-confident over it

Exam

I thought I can always pass it

But actually it isn't the truth

I'm over-confident

When I came to face my paper 1, I found it very distracted

I couldn't do the paper

I knew I'm going to fail it

Therefore I worked very hard for the paper 2

It was okie for the paper 2 this morning

I hope I can pass it

But But But

It came to disturbed my decision toward my future career

What I'm going to do?

I don't know

I really don't know

May be I should really rely on the fate or something

May be???

But I really think that I should make things happen not sit down wait things to happen

Because it is absolutely waste of valuable time

Different people have different opinions

But when it comes to the end

I'll be the only one who make the decision

But I have to consider many different factors around

Because I can't be so selfish

So???????

WHATEVER

The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits. 天才和愚蠢之間的區別就是天才有他的局限。

What is Genius?

What is Stupidity?

Everyone have different definition

From my definition, Genius is someone who has exceptional intellectual ability and originality. In other words, it means that someone has the ability to invent himself/herself.
Stupidity is someone who has problem with understand something.

You want to be a GENIUS or a STUPIDITY

I bet everyone want to be GENIUS ---- > INCLUDE ME

How to act as a Genius??

【 There are 7 steps to think like a Genius:
1. The first step is to expand your consciousness as well as your perspectives.

The genius mind will look at a problem from many different perspectives. They are literally able to place themselves completely in someone else’s shoes in order to experience a new way of looking at things. By doing this, they expand their knowledge and consciousness of the world around them.

Look at problems from a variety of different perspectives. Most people only rely on their own perspective, and therefore always have a very narrow view of the world.

Leonardo da Vinci believed that, to gain knowledge about the form of a problem, you must begin by learning how to restructure it in many different ways. He believed that the first way you look at a problem is entirely too biased. You are only seeing the problem from one perspective: yours.

You can find new solutions to the problem by looking at it from a variety of different perspectives. According to Einstein, “You cannot solve a problem with the same type of thinking that is creating it.”

Einstein insisted that the secret of his genius was his ability to look at problems in a childlike, imaginative way.

To expand his view of the world, Einstein developed a mastermind group that he called the Olympiad. This group held intensive discussions on topics ranging from mathematics and physics to philosophy and literature.

These forums provided the stimulus needed for higher-level thinking and were often combine with camping trips involving hiking, swimming, and a good dose of humor.

The genius lives at a high level of consciousness about the world around them. They are receptive to new ideas, which provide them with even greater opportunity. The person who clings to their comfort zone is living in a low level of consciousness. Their experiences each day are often a repetition of the previous day.

You reach a higher level of consciousness when you reach new levels of understanding, experience a major growth experience, or embrace new ways of thinking.

When you were eight years old, you had a different view of the world than you do today. This is because you are now living in a higher consciousness/awareness of the world around you. You must constantly seek to expand your awareness if you want to grow.

Your consciousness determines how you experience life.

To expand your awareness, you must consistently seek opportunities for growth. Look for new relationships. Expand your knowledge. Step out of your comfort zone. Experience life to the fullest.

2. Once you have begun seeking your greatest aims in life, you must also persist…

The most successful people in life are the ones who are the most persistent. Interestingly, enough the most successful people in life are also the ones who have experienced the most failure.

The rest are too afraid to try and therefore never experience success or failure.

In fact, I would argue that failure is the quickest path to success. The greatest success is always preceded by a long list of failures.

Think of Thomas Edison, who after 10,000 attempts at creating the electric lightbulb, said, “I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.”

Failure is a prerequisite for success; embrace it as a learning experience that brings you one step closer to your ultimate goal.

To truly be great, you must not be afraid of failing.

The leaders in life don’t fear failure. Like most, you probably learned in elementary school about the accomplishments of Christopher Columbus. However, you probably don’t know that the likely result of his journey was humiliation, financial ruin, or even death. He was making a journey, which most people believed would cause him to fall off the edge of the Earth.

All previous efforts to cross the Atlantic had been made by sailors who clung to the European coast in order to ensure a means of return. Columbus, however, sailed perpendicular to the shoreline. He was venturing into the unknown, without knowing what, if anything, lay ahead.

In the end, it turned out that Columbus, was, in fact, a visionary genius.

Even after six weeks at sea with no sight of land, he maintained unwavering belief in his goal. Most people would have given up at this point, but Columbus kept going. This was one of the most important factors in determining his success.

Most of what people refer to as failure is simply a lack of persistence.

How many times do we hug the coastline in our own lives, latching onto the familiar? Growth is always preceded by change. For us to improve and grow, we must embrace change and constantly step out of our old familiar comfort zones. When we do, we will find that we begin to live a life full of adventure and increased opportunity.

3. The third step to thinking like a genius is to Visualize!

Albert Einstein, Leonardo da Vinci, Walt Disney, Nikola Tesla, and even Mozart all ascribed their creative genius to their ability to visualize.

Einstein said that all of his most important and productive thinking was done by “combinatory play” with “images” in his mind. Einstein used images, visual patterns and associations to discover more about the world around him.

Einstein believed that the spirit of learning and creative thought were lost in strict rote learning. Instead, he turned to his own imagination and visualization.

Visualization is an incredibly powerful tool in solving problems. Often times much more powerful that simply using words or numbers.

Visual thinking is done in the right side of the brain, presenting new problem solving and big-picture thinking. Visualization goes hand in hand with our next genius principle…

4. Imagination

Einstein was well acquainted with the childlike sense of play, possibility, and humor. His ability to remain in a childlike state of wonder and curiosity is the essence of his genius.

Dr. Jacques Hadmard spent much of his life studying the thought processes of great scientists and mathematicians. He found that their thinking process was characterized not by words or standard mathematical symbols, but instead by visual imagery.

The same was true for Einstein, who said, “The words of the language, as they are written or spoken, do not seem to play any role in my mechanisms of thought.”

He also wrote that his thought processes instead “rely, more or less, on clear images of a visual and some of a muscular type.”

These few sentences give us a rare insight into one of the greatest minds. Einstein teaches us the importance of thinking visually.

Dr. Marian Diamond and her colleagues at the University of California at Berkeley published a paper entitled “On the Brain of a Scientist: Albert Einstein.” Their research showed that Einstein’s brain contained 400 percent more “glial” cells per neuron than average. They also found that his brain was especially well developed in the area of the brain used for association.

However, we will never know whether Einstein’s brain was highly developed as a result of his thought processes and stimulating environment or from an extraordinary neuro-anatomical gift?

Much of our brainpower is due to the interconnection between brain cells. We know now that these interconnections - glial cells, dendrites, axons, and synapses - can continue to increase in number throughout the course of an individual’s life.

Dr. Diamond’s research suggests that combinatory play and a stimulus-rich environment are two of the keys to increasing the minds to make these internal connections within the mind from which genius is born.

Much of Einstein’s creativity was found in his ability to make unfamiliar and unexpected relationships.

Einstein coined the term, “combinatory play”. Although it had always existed, Einstein used this powerful way of thinking in his daily thought processes.

According to Einstein, combinatory play is sifting through data, perceptions, and materials to come up with combinations that are new and useful.

Einstein himself believed that you could stimulate ingenious thought by allowing the imagination to run freely, forming associations at will.

Einstein also performed what’s referred to as thought experiments.

As a young man, Einstein imagined himself running alongside a beam of light. He then asked himself what it would look like. This was one of his first thought experiments.

A thought experiment is carried out in the mind. It requires you to ask yourself a question. You then visualize a situation and perform some kind of experimental action and see what happens. These types of thought experiments provide a method for understanding nature without performing a direct experiment on it.

Try this out in your own life by asking yourself the following questions:

* What would happen if we found a way to use 100% of our brain potential?
* What our the possible solutions to world hunger?
* How would Albert Einstein, Leonardo da Vinci, or Newton approach this problem?
* What if I could hold infinity in the palm of my hand? (This has been a popular thought question among poets as well as quantum physicists.)

5. The next key, and one of the most important elements, to genius thinking is that of curiosity: the courage to ask questions.

Why do kids ask so many questions? They are naturally curious about the world around them. They discover the world through questioning others as well as themselves. In the process, they are creating neuro-associations that will guide their futures.

As we grow older, however, we become passive to the world around us. We stop asking questions, lose our much of our curiosity, and the learning comes to a screeching halt.

Without questions, we cannot grow.

Albert Einstein once said,

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of the mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity.”

Socrates, Aristotle and Plato were some of the first great minds to develop the importance of questions. The entire Socratic method, which is a way of teaching that dates back to the Ancient Greeks, is based upon the teacher asking nothing but questions. These questions direct the students’ focus, enabling them to discover their own answers to life’s questions.

Successful people are simply those who have asked better questions. Instead of asking, “How will I ever get out of debt?” They asked themselves, “How can I learn from this experience?”

When computers were still taking up entire rooms, Bill Gates asked himself, “How can I get a computer in every household?”

When the automobile first emerged on the scene, hundreds of people started to build them, but Henry Ford asked, “How can I mass-produce them?”

As a young boy, Albert Einstein asked himself, “”What would it be like to run beside a light beam at the speed of light?”

Plato believed that skilled questions could lead not only to the discovery of geometry, science, and philosophy, but also to the realization of virtue, justice, beauty and truth.

Start to ask yourself and others empowering questions. Develop an unbound curiosity. Practice wonder.

6. You become what you think about.

Pay close attention now as we come upon the sixth principle that leads to genius. It is the Law of Attraction, which says you become what you think about.

The Law of Attraction says that what you think about, you bring about. Therefore, you become what you think about most. In addition, you also attract what you think about most.

In other words, Thoughts Become Things.

Your life is a physical manifestation of the thoughts that go on in your head.

Michael Jordan focused on perfecting every aspect of his game. This definite desire turned his weaknesses into strengths and made him one of the greatest leaders in basketball.

Wrigley concentrated his mind on the production and sale of a five-cent package of chewing gum and turned this one idea in to millions of dollars.

Edwin C. Barnes had a burning desire to go into business with Thomas Edison. He focused himself completely on this desire until it finally came to fruiting and he retired, while still a young man, with more money than he needs.

Lincoln concentrated his mind on freeing the slaves and became our greatest American President while doing it. Gillette concentrated on a safety razor, gave the entire world a “close shave” and made himself a multimillionaire.

George Eastman concentrated on the Kodak and made the idea yield him a fortune while bringing much pleasure to millions of people.

The Wright Brothers concentrated on the airplane and mastered the air.

Bill Gates concentrated on the personal computer, now a PC is found in nearly every home to help educate, entertain and enrich people’s lives.

All of these people were well adept in the Law of Attraction.

There is evidence that the law of attraction was also used by Einstein, Beethoven, and even Jesus. This same power is available to you. In fact, you are experiencing the Law of Attraction at this very moment whether you know it or not. This is because the law of attraction is always at work. Your life experience is in line with the thoughts that reside in your mind.

You create your own reality. What you think about, you bring about. What you emotionalize in thought, you bring about in reality.

Recent research is in support of this law. For example, research on optimism has shown that optimists enjoy better health, greater happiness, more success in life, and a longer life. The optimist focuses on success and minimizes their failures.

Pessimists, on the other hand, experience far more disease, depression, and a shorter life span.

What you focus on with thought and feeling is what you attract into your life.

The genius exercises this same law in their everyday life. The genius expects success and puts complete faith in their goal. They expect more out of life and therefore, they receive it.

You can do the same. Expect success and persist until you have found it.

7. The last and final step in thinking like a genius is to Have Fun!

No person has achieved massive success by doing what they hate. Pablo Picasso once said, “When I work I relax; doing nothing or entertaining visitors makes me tired.”

In addition, Dale Carnegie said, “People rarely succeed unless they have fun in what they are doing.”

The most successful people in life find work that inspires and excites them.

I’ll leave you with a fitting poem Christain D. Larson:

When you work simply for yourself or for your own personal gain your mind will seldom rise above the limitations of the undeveloped personal life; but when you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break bounds; your mind transcends limitations; your consciousness expands in every direction; and you find yourself in a new world, a great world, a wonderful world; dormant powers, faculties and talents become alive, and you discover yourself to be a larger man by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be.” -- Christian D. Larson, Business Psychology, 1912 】


Wow!! So long... But it is worth to look at

Let's try our best

TRY NOT TO OVER YOUR LIMITS

I DON'T WANT TO BE A VASE
I WANT TO BE A SMARTER

Life is unbreakable

Only soft and unbreakable can describe us

Even a single accident also can lead us to go away from this world

eg. Car accident
Food poisoning
Lobbying
etc etc

It is hard to predict what will happen in the future

We must cherish what we have

and

Always try to satify ourselves

and

Always think in positive way rather than a negative way

As WE ONLY HAVE ONE CHANCE

So

DON'T MAKE OURSELVES REGRET

Stress -> Escaping -> Facing

Stress is your body's way of responding to any kind of demand
It can be caused by both good and bad experiences
When people feel stressed by something going on around them, their bodies react by releasing chemicals into the blood
Good --> give people more energy and strength
Bad --> stress is in response to something emotional

Things cause stress:
1. Physical stress (such as fear of something dangerous)
2. Emotional stress (such as worry over your family or job)
3. Survival Stress
4. Internal Stress
5. Environmental Stress
6. Fatigue and Overwork

Yes, I think I have some of these problems:
1. Physical stress - fear from people
2. Emotional stress - worry about family, financial situations, and job
3. Internal Stress - thinking too much on future, life and some hormones
4. Environmental Stress - pressure from school, work, and family
5. Fatigue and Overwork - job, exams, too little sleep and health




【 I wasn't good enough in my job. People were giving out to me and told me to do things. But I'm not the only one who doing that. Different people told different things. It is hard for me to adjust. 】




I understand why they're giving out to me

I know I'm just not good enough

There are spaces for development and improvement

But do you know how stress I'm while I'm at work

I have to do everything in a limited time and expected without any mistake

I'd tried to

But still I always very nervous and stress

Those feelings cause me make mistakes

If people don't give me pressure, I definite will do it better and better

If people want to tell me that I'm wrong, please don't say it in an angry way, it will not work




Stress from inside and outside make me feel want to escape

I don't want to face this anymore

I want a new lifestyle

How come there are always some situations make me to decide something I don't want to do

Life is out of my control

I don't have the ability to make plans and follow my wills




Just now

I FEEL WANT TO BURST OUT

But

I KNOW I HAVE TO FACE IT

In-mature ---> Semi-Maturing

When you are young, you don't know how it will be like when you're old

But

When you are old, you definite know how it is like when you are young




【 I was tidying my folder today, I dumped many useless sheets and papers. But in one slide of my folder, I saw few pages of my old writing from last year. It was very funny and stupid when I saw them. I wrote many negative thinking stuff like' why, why, why... I suddenly realised that I'm become quite mature than last year. I was wondering why I wrote so many negative and pessimistic stuff because of a small dispute with friend. 】




It is actually very funny to see those pages

I'm actually realised that I've change abit

Seriously..


I think

I should CARE LESS about others

And

I should be more OPTIMISTIC

Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare.

I bet everybody in this world DREAM

Human beings have an inalienable right to invent themselves

Everyone definite have their own VISION

Dream is necessary for life

Vision is not necessary, but common

Like Susan Boyle, she sang ' I dreamed a dream '. She dreamed of to be a singer. Finally, she became a world-famous singer.

Her steps to pursue her dream are simple:
- She daydreamed
- She steped further

Basically, if you have dreams, goals, objectives, or visions, you should really moving on.

Dreams are the touchstones of our character

We all hope and dream for a better tomorrow

Too often people just simpley dream and never take a step further

Too often people ignore the reality

Dreams only pass into the reality

Analaysis --> Plan --> Devise --> Implement

You don't have to be an entrepreneur for doing these things

But there are some similarities:
- Initiative
- Proactive
- Independent
- Self-belief

I read Brody Sweeney's book ' Small To Tall ' few months ago. Well, it is a book about how to grow your business from its entrepreneurial roots not about planning and stuff. But he wrote down many difficulties he experienced and how he achieved his dream. He became a large franchiser and his chain is now operating over 300 Sandwich Bar outlets in Australia, Europe, Asia and United State.

Another example is Christian Dior. He is my favourite designer. His dream to be involved in the world of fashion was strong. He overcomed all the difficulties and eventually found his fashion house ' Christian Dior '.

I admire of his talents and his courageous. I would love to sucess like them. I would love to step out further for my goals.

I recently is thinking about some issues about my parents. I know what they want to do and I know what they are thrist to do. But they are still struggling. Well, it is hard to know what will happen in the future but I think they should really moving on not just have their vision but no actions. And of course, I　will try my best to help them.

Anyway, LET'S START..

We must DREAM, BELIEVE AND ACT ON IT.

Even a mistake may turn out to be the one thing necessary to a worthwhile achievement

Everyone in this planet makes mistakes

But those mistakes might turn to a worthwhile achievement if study deeply on the mistakes, you will find something useful out from it

I make alots mistakes

Not only in exams, some misunderstands also

But sure, those mistakes gave me lessons

It helped me to growth and mature

Today, I have learn some lessons

I hope I can cope with it from now on




【 I always have problems with communicate with others, I was very upset about it. It had been trouble me for so long.. About few years. I blamed everything. Thus, I made many mistakes and misunderstand many things.
But this few months, I'd learned from those mistake. I'm getting so much better now. 】
【 One of my friend is always hint me up when I talk to him. He can always cheer me up and helps me to find solutions. Without him, I think I'd still stuck with those stupid problems. Well, sometimes he misreads me. But still, he is a good friend. 】




By learning through mistakes, I got great outcomes

Don't care

Human are born with minding and stubborn

People usually stick on their points and care about every single steps that they are doing

Yes, I admit I'm this type of person

I care about everything basically

And of course, I do care about something that is precious

Like, Family





【 I was very nervous about my last module of ECDL 'Database'. Because i failed it the last time, so I don't want to failed it again. I meant to do ECDL today but unforeseen events happened. I spent 50 mins before lunch waiting my teacher to active the account but he was very very busy with talking to random people. I was quite cross, but I have no choice, I have to do it. After lunch I spent about 40 mins waiting him again. I was quite upset about it because I did nothing. But it wasn't his fault, just those random people kept talking to him and he cannot moved at all. Also the bloody computer system was gone crazy. Now, I　don't know when I can do it again. The ECDL had been distructed me for so long. It made me some nightmare.
I really care about it but unfortunately the god doesn't seem want me to do what I want.
I had a exam last week but I didn't feel nervous at all.. Nothing really. But it went quite success. 】




Well, it isn't a big deal

But it had happened to me all the time

When I care about something, it will never goes smoothly

But when I don't care about something, it's actually goes very smoothly

It probably happens to many people but anyway



TODAY

I'D LEARNED NOT TO CARE TOO MUCH

LET IT GOES AS IT IS

LIFE IS TOO IMPERMANENCE

Theory of LOVE

Everyone in this planet thirst for LOVE

But is love necessary?

If you ask me, I will say 'yes'

Love is necessary in life

The Love of Family

The Love of Friendship

The Love of Marriage

Without my family, I probably won't be able to tide over those difficulties

Thus, Family is the most important factor in my life

From William Shakespare , he said that 'Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind'

This is exactly what I mean




【 Friend of mine told me that she likes him but she doesn't want to date with him because she doesn't want to stick with somebody everyday and she needs freedom. She is just in open relationship with him. 】






From her, I just realize that some people actually don't want and don't need to with the person they like or love

They just sometimes need the biologically and physically mind, spirit and touch from someone they like

Well, Love is complicated

But the power of Love is effective

For me, The LOVE of FAMILY is SIMPLE and STRAIGHT FORWARD

Treat the lessons of others as a training and also face it with smile. 【把别人的教训当成是训练自己的课题，而且还要微笑的面对】

When people give lessons and giving out

Don't be panic

Face it with smile

' Smile is like the sun, can melt everything '

Melt the person and accept the lessons




【Few of my colleagues were giving out to me last night

Well, it isn't really a giving out but his volume was quite high

Sound like giving out

I was quite angry and upset because I don't really think it was my fault but part of it was my fault

So I accepted the facts】




I told myself to smiled and faced it

Because I've learn a lesson

I　learned how to react in such situation