Indecisive

I had been a indecisive person since I was born
I won't be able to make my own choice; I always change my mind; I always worry this and that
I never stay on my mind and hold up
This is a very bad character - I know it, I really do

But there are reasons
What I had experienced before leaded me to this such defect...
What I had plan and thought will never turn up
Seriously, Never and Ever

Do you know how bad the feelings are?
Actually I already get used to the way of disapointed from expectations
I already fed up
I already give up
I already accept it
I already not unhappy about those shits, I just bit disapointing
I know I shouldn't give up so easily, and the true is just I won't pay too much expect from my plan and my thought
I will just LEAVE IT GO AS IT IS

Anyway
ONCE YOU SET THE TARGET, STAY AT IT, NO MATTER WHAT <-- this is what I want to tell myself, I need to learn

Btw, I accept the harsh and the discipline from the god.
I WILL ADD OIL -- ps: Im not that pessimistic, I know I will be OPTIMISTIC
I don't know how I will be in a month, in few year, in my life
But, I WILL TRY MY BEST AND JUST ACCEPT EVERYTHING :D