Who tell you life is easy

I will never forget this statement from my colleague.
Few weeks ago, While I was busy and D came in to helped me. I told him ' Life is tough, Life is hard '. But guess what he said?
' WHO TELL YOU LIFE IS EASY '
I was really shocked because he hinted me up. What he said is true, who tell us life is easy.
Well, Life is never easy.

I feel tired.
I have to drive up to college every day and at the weekend I have to work like hell.
I really want a change but how? In what way?
Everyday, all the probelms and triggers come in front of my eye and wait me to get up from sleep.
I know, many troubles are from myself but I really don't know how to change my attitude.
I always tell myself to accept the life and move on but I never really work it out. There are thousands and thousands truths that I want to speak and scream out loud, but I have no way to release.
Blogging can help me something but not alots.
I should stop using the 'But', because 'But' means bad.

One of big defeat is = relationship with people
I don't really know how to interact with people becauce my communication skills are bad. They misunderstood me. I reallt don't know how to make them relize my words.
Gosh, please read my word properly. I hate being misunderstand by others.

I don't know what I want to write out. I just know that now my heart is vexed and tired.
I thought my life can be better after attending college. But unfortunately, more problems. May be I'm thinking too much.

One thing I really don't get and don't understand is:
WHY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME 'ARE YOU OKIE'
Why?
Am I that weak? Or in my friends eyes, they all think that I'm a weak girl.
Well, what I can say is ' I'M NOT A STRONG GRIL '
But, Am I that weak?
It doesn't matter where I'm and what I do, people will always ask me 'ARE YOU OKIE'
E.g.
1. I rubbed my eyes, people then said ' Are you okie? ' They thought I was crying.
2. In nightclub, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
3. At work, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
4. I sneezed, then people asked me ' Are you okkie? '
5. In school, school mates asked me ' Are you okie? '
And many others situations but I forgot.
Why they keep ask me ' Am I okie '
Something wrong with my face? Am I looked too sad?
Therefore yesterday, I asked one my colleague:
Me : Why you keep ask me ' Am I okie? '
C : I also don't know.
Me : You think I cried or something?
C : I think so. I always think you are sad or cry when you're sneeze and when you aren't talking.
Me : Why? It's so weird.
C : Ya, It's weird.
This is our conversation. I really wondering WHY?
Can somebody answer me?
May be is because of my face.

Anyway,
LEARN TO SAY NO, MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.