Value those that you have right now - 珍惜眼前人

I miss her - My Granny
My granny is now 80 years old and will turn 81 soon

80 seems like a gate for us - It is a old gate for us

My parents left me and my brother and they went to Ireland for work when I was 3 years old. My granny and my aunt were the one whose raised me up and whose took care of me and my brother. But we left them when I was 12. We went to Ireland and we stayed here till now. Well, of course, we returned there 3 times so far. Everytime I returned there, I saw their faces were paled and more older. They aren't the one whose used to take care of me. Their pale hair made me regret. They aren't young anymore.

I miss them. I really miss them. I want to see them and take care of them. Seriously, I can't wait to graduate and return to homeland to stay with them. Of course with my parents too. This is one of my dream.

This summer, 2010. I thought that I should be responsible and shouldn't use too much money for returning and shouldn't just leave my parents and job here. But I realised that the job doesn't need me. I realised that I don't have the exploitation value anymore. They don't need me. They abandoned me.

I'm really regret that I didn't return to visit my granny and my relatives in Malaysia. I miss them. It is too late for returning.

I like read newspaper. But you know, many news in newspaper are about the deaths and stuff like that. I feel that we must always value those that we have right now. We must cherish, we must act on our dreams and we must use the valuable time.

Definitely, I will return next year and definitely I won't pay too much time on those rubbish things... I will enjoy my life and I won't just work and work and I won't make life difficult for myself.

I WANT TO MOVE ON