It's mean what??

I follow my mind, then ??
I keep the promise, then ??
I always care about people, then ??
I always help people, then ??

It's mean what??
I get what at the end??

I don't want to blame anybody and anything but I should really think and self review, What is good and what is bad.
May be all I did is wrong..
I really don't know.

This time, I fell in too deep.
I need many things to stand back again.
I feel helpless.

What is now?
What is going on?
What???

MK, IT'S MEAN WHAT??