It's everywhere
What can we do to stop it?
Really, nothing we can do
Just simple IGNORE it
After then .. ??
Hurt inside.
I already tried my best to forget and get over all the guilties, all the stupids, all the scars.
But why devils still follow and try to catch me?
I really do wan't a new life.
So??
Wants and Facts are different.
People can change their attitudes toward you.
People can ignore you even you were close to each other the last second.
People can damage your name by saying out a simple lie.
What we can do?
I'm not a harsh person
I just want a simple life
PLEASE LET ME GO
MK, POSITIVE
Thursday, September 30
Tuesday, September 28
Pretending to be stronger because you are weaker than anyone else, you are just so reluctant to admit it. 故作坚强是因为你其实比谁都软弱，你是那么不愿意去承认这一点。
Pretending
Pretended I don't care
Pretended I don't mind
Pretended to be happy
Pretended to be stupid
There are lots and lots of pretending in our life
What comment I can give?
Nothing
Really, Nothing
Actually, I really feel positive these days, but things always turn me up side down.
I want to think NOTHING
I just want to LVE THE MOMENT n ENJOY MY LIFE
I do not want to live for others
IT'S MY LIFE
MK, DO NOT CARE & MIND
IT'S YOUR LIFE
BE HAPPY
Pretended I don't care
Pretended I don't mind
Pretended to be happy
Pretended to be stupid
There are lots and lots of pretending in our life
What comment I can give?
Nothing
Really, Nothing
Actually, I really feel positive these days, but things always turn me up side down.
I want to think NOTHING
I just want to LVE THE MOMENT n ENJOY MY LIFE
I do not want to live for others
IT'S MY LIFE
MK, DO NOT CARE & MIND
IT'S YOUR LIFE
BE HAPPY
Monday, September 27
Won't Care & Won't Mind = Feel Better
Mind and Care are always my bad habits because too much from them
Mind about everything and Care about everything just will make me feel worse
They make me feel upset and negative
Therefore, I decide try to:
DON'T CARE & MIND
WON'T CARE & MIND
Just
LIVE THE MOMENT
ENJOY THE LIFE
HAVE FUN
By the way, I think I should really control myself more because I go crazy very easily and always say something worng and behave unmanner.
MK, LIVE THE MOMENT
NOT TO CARE AND MIND TOO MUCH
DO WHAT YOU CAN DO AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO
CONTROL YOURSELF
Mind about everything and Care about everything just will make me feel worse
They make me feel upset and negative
Therefore, I decide try to:
DON'T CARE & MIND
WON'T CARE & MIND
Just
LIVE THE MOMENT
ENJOY THE LIFE
HAVE FUN
By the way, I think I should really control myself more because I go crazy very easily and always say something worng and behave unmanner.
MK, LIVE THE MOMENT
NOT TO CARE AND MIND TOO MUCH
DO WHAT YOU CAN DO AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO
CONTROL YOURSELF
Sunday, September 26
Already too long in a condition, Time to move on
Since the semester started, my life is kind of stuck in one place.
May be I should say it in this way :
I feel that I haven't learn anything since the semester have started
I feel that I'm wasting my valuable time, because I was struggling on something.
But it's okie now. I should really catch up my plans and aims.
IT'S TIME TO MOVE
I'm going to start my college life properly, not to think about triggers and silly things. --- >> Well, I hope so.
Life isn't only about silly things.
Life should fill with values.
MK, BE BRAVE
ADD OIL
MOVING ON
DO EVERYTHING THAT I CAN
GO GO GO
May be I should say it in this way :
I feel that I haven't learn anything since the semester have started
I feel that I'm wasting my valuable time, because I was struggling on something.
But it's okie now. I should really catch up my plans and aims.
IT'S TIME TO MOVE
I'm going to start my college life properly, not to think about triggers and silly things. --- >> Well, I hope so.
Life isn't only about silly things.
Life should fill with values.
MK, BE BRAVE
ADD OIL
MOVING ON
DO EVERYTHING THAT I CAN
GO GO GO
Thursday, September 23
Monday, September 13
It doesn't mean you can have the thing you like
Always
Always
What you like will not come to you easily
Always
Always
What you don't like and don't want come to you easily
Isn't it stupid?
Well THAT'S LIFE..
This song can really express my word...
I don't know when I have the ability to get and to do what I like, I'd hope I won't give up.
LIVE THE MOMENT,MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
WORK IT UP!!
Always
What you like will not come to you easily
Always
Always
What you don't like and don't want come to you easily
Isn't it stupid?
Well THAT'S LIFE..
This song can really express my word...
I don't know when I have the ability to get and to do what I like, I'd hope I won't give up.
LIVE THE MOMENT,MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
WORK IT UP!!
Sunday, September 12
Who tell you life is easy
I will never forget this statement from my colleague.
Few weeks ago, While I was busy and D came in to helped me. I told him ' Life is tough, Life is hard '. But guess what he said?
' WHO TELL YOU LIFE IS EASY '
I was really shocked because he hinted me up. What he said is true, who tell us life is easy.
Well, Life is never easy.
I feel tired.
I have to drive up to college every day and at the weekend I have to work like hell.
I really want a change but how? In what way?
Everyday, all the probelms and triggers come in front of my eye and wait me to get up from sleep.
I know, many troubles are from myself but I really don't know how to change my attitude.
I always tell myself to accept the life and move on but I never really work it out. There are thousands and thousands truths that I want to speak and scream out loud, but I have no way to release.
Blogging can help me something but not alots.
I should stop using the 'But', because 'But' means bad.
One of big defeat is = relationship with people
I don't really know how to interact with people becauce my communication skills are bad. They misunderstood me. I reallt don't know how to make them relize my words.
Gosh, please read my word properly. I hate being misunderstand by others.
I don't know what I want to write out. I just know that now my heart is vexed and tired.
I thought my life can be better after attending college. But unfortunately, more problems. May be I'm thinking too much.
One thing I really don't get and don't understand is:
WHY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME 'ARE YOU OKIE'
Why?
Am I that weak? Or in my friends eyes, they all think that I'm a weak girl.
Well, what I can say is ' I'M NOT A STRONG GRIL '
But, Am I that weak?
It doesn't matter where I'm and what I do, people will always ask me 'ARE YOU OKIE'
E.g.
1. I rubbed my eyes, people then said ' Are you okie? ' They thought I was crying.
2. In nightclub, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
3. At work, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
4. I sneezed, then people asked me ' Are you okkie? '
5. In school, school mates asked me ' Are you okie? '
And many others situations but I forgot.
Why they keep ask me ' Am I okie '
Something wrong with my face? Am I looked too sad?
Therefore yesterday, I asked one my colleague:
Me : Why you keep ask me ' Am I okie? '
C : I also don't know.
Me : You think I cried or something?
C : I think so. I always think you are sad or cry when you're sneeze and when you aren't talking.
Me : Why? It's so weird.
C : Ya, It's weird.
This is our conversation. I really wondering WHY?
Can somebody answer me?
May be is because of my face.
Anyway,
LEARN TO SAY NO, MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.
Few weeks ago, While I was busy and D came in to helped me. I told him ' Life is tough, Life is hard '. But guess what he said?
' WHO TELL YOU LIFE IS EASY '
I was really shocked because he hinted me up. What he said is true, who tell us life is easy.
Well, Life is never easy.
I feel tired.
I have to drive up to college every day and at the weekend I have to work like hell.
I really want a change but how? In what way?
Everyday, all the probelms and triggers come in front of my eye and wait me to get up from sleep.
I know, many troubles are from myself but I really don't know how to change my attitude.
I always tell myself to accept the life and move on but I never really work it out. There are thousands and thousands truths that I want to speak and scream out loud, but I have no way to release.
Blogging can help me something but not alots.
I should stop using the 'But', because 'But' means bad.
One of big defeat is = relationship with people
I don't really know how to interact with people becauce my communication skills are bad. They misunderstood me. I reallt don't know how to make them relize my words.
Gosh, please read my word properly. I hate being misunderstand by others.
I don't know what I want to write out. I just know that now my heart is vexed and tired.
I thought my life can be better after attending college. But unfortunately, more problems. May be I'm thinking too much.
One thing I really don't get and don't understand is:
WHY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME 'ARE YOU OKIE'
Why?
Am I that weak? Or in my friends eyes, they all think that I'm a weak girl.
Well, what I can say is ' I'M NOT A STRONG GRIL '
But, Am I that weak?
It doesn't matter where I'm and what I do, people will always ask me 'ARE YOU OKIE'
E.g.
1. I rubbed my eyes, people then said ' Are you okie? ' They thought I was crying.
2. In nightclub, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
3. At work, people keep asked me ' Are you okie? '
4. I sneezed, then people asked me ' Are you okkie? '
5. In school, school mates asked me ' Are you okie? '
And many others situations but I forgot.
Why they keep ask me ' Am I okie '
Something wrong with my face? Am I looked too sad?
Therefore yesterday, I asked one my colleague:
Me : Why you keep ask me ' Am I okie? '
C : I also don't know.
Me : You think I cried or something?
C : I think so. I always think you are sad or cry when you're sneeze and when you aren't talking.
Me : Why? It's so weird.
C : Ya, It's weird.
This is our conversation. I really wondering WHY?
Can somebody answer me?
May be is because of my face.
Anyway,
LEARN TO SAY NO, MK
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.
Wednesday, September 8
New life started ...
From now on, I have to drive up and down everyday for college. It is really tiring and it will be so tiresome. What I can do? I have no choices. :( Well, have to get used to it.
This is the view when I drove back to home after college. I will have to face this everyday.... I can't imagine that how I would like for the following three years.
We had this today for our dinner. I love my daddy because he always make many nice and gorgerous dishes for us. This is one of my favourite. 【 Fried Aubergine 】I'm going to learn how to cook properly... :) :D
BTW,
LEARN
LEARN
LEARN
N
GET USED TO THE LIFE
This is the view when I drove back to home after college. I will have to face this everyday.... I can't imagine that how I would like for the following three years.
We had this today for our dinner. I love my daddy because he always make many nice and gorgerous dishes for us. This is one of my favourite. 【 Fried Aubergine 】I'm going to learn how to cook properly... :) :D
BTW,
LEARN
LEARN
LEARN
N
GET USED TO THE LIFE
Tuesday, September 7
First Day of Semester
It was my first day of semester 1, but I only had one class today. I'm really enjoyed the day but something happened that spoiled my mood.
As I said, It was my first day, so I still not too sure how the WIT works. There is a big car park behind the campus, but there wasn't any spaces at all therefore I had no choice, I had to parked it somewhere that hindered others car. Therefore, when I returned to my car after the class, I saw 2 sheets. One sheet was from the WIT which stated that I had parked wrong and hinder other. I will have to pay fees if I do any violation again. But, come on, where we suppose to park if there isn't any car park? Of course, I know it was my fault but still I parked there because other did it as well. Anyway, I was glad that I don't need to pay the stupid fine. The second sheet was from students from WIT, because the language that appeared in the sheet was really bad and no maner. I don't understand why people use such languge all the time. Have they ever realise how bad it is and how no maner it is. It's a shame. Serisouly. This really spoiled my mood and made my hapiness day to disappeared.. Anyway, I don't want to care..
Seriously, I have to get rid of the undecisive habit because I couldn't make decisions..
MK, WAKE UP
LEARN
WORK
SET THE TARGET, AND GO..
DON'T LOOK BACK
As I said, It was my first day, so I still not too sure how the WIT works. There is a big car park behind the campus, but there wasn't any spaces at all therefore I had no choice, I had to parked it somewhere that hindered others car. Therefore, when I returned to my car after the class, I saw 2 sheets. One sheet was from the WIT which stated that I had parked wrong and hinder other. I will have to pay fees if I do any violation again. But, come on, where we suppose to park if there isn't any car park? Of course, I know it was my fault but still I parked there because other did it as well. Anyway, I was glad that I don't need to pay the stupid fine. The second sheet was from students from WIT, because the language that appeared in the sheet was really bad and no maner. I don't understand why people use such languge all the time. Have they ever realise how bad it is and how no maner it is. It's a shame. Serisouly. This really spoiled my mood and made my hapiness day to disappeared.. Anyway, I don't want to care..
Seriously, I have to get rid of the undecisive habit because I couldn't make decisions..
MK, WAKE UP
LEARN
WORK
SET THE TARGET, AND GO..
DON'T LOOK BACK
Sunday, September 5
Semester start tomorrow
YES!!
Semester starts tomorrow.
Actually now I'm quite depress because will need to back to student life and need to face all the stress and pressure. I'm not looking forward but I'm can wait to have everything over and leave the country.. May be!!! :)
Anyway for the following 3 years, I will try my best to study hard for a good and brilliant certificate so that I will be able to do what I want.
Life is bored and tough.
But I need to be possitve otherwise life will not be fun and challenge.
I will need to set my objectives for my 3 years college life. I want to get all I can from the college because I don't want to waste my time and opportunities... And also it is expensive enough to study there. So don't waste time and money. Time is VALUABLE.
START YOUR NEW LIFE TOMORROW, MK.
BE BRAVE.
Semester starts tomorrow.
Actually now I'm quite depress because will need to back to student life and need to face all the stress and pressure. I'm not looking forward but I'm can wait to have everything over and leave the country.. May be!!! :)
Anyway for the following 3 years, I will try my best to study hard for a good and brilliant certificate so that I will be able to do what I want.
Life is bored and tough.
But I need to be possitve otherwise life will not be fun and challenge.
I will need to set my objectives for my 3 years college life. I want to get all I can from the college because I don't want to waste my time and opportunities... And also it is expensive enough to study there. So don't waste time and money. Time is VALUABLE.
START YOUR NEW LIFE TOMORROW, MK.
BE BRAVE.
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